I am seeking help since I am having no quality of life whatsoever and can't enjoy my life or my hobbies at all whatsoever. I am in this hellish and miserable mental state 24/7 all because of this idea that I could forever remain dead when I die. The difference between me and people like you is that, for whatever reason, the idea of you forever no longer existing when you die isn't all that bad to you. You are fine with it. But since it is the most horrible thing to me, then this is the reason why I can't enjoy my life and why my life is completely miserable all the time. No matter how much I tell myself to "just accept it," "just deal with it and allow it, "it isn't all that bad," etc. none of these things work. For me to forever die and no longer live this precious life is the most horrible thing to me and even the advice of others who tell me that this life has more joy and meaning since it is the one and only life does not work for me either. Telling myself that doesn't work either and the idea of me forever dying still renders my life of no quality.Who says we are all fine with it? It's just a fact of life that we can't do anything about when the time comes for us to die. We just accept it and enjoy the life we do have. The earth is overpopulated with humans now. Just think what it would be like if we all lived forever and continued to procreated. Climate Change would have happen centuries ago, for starters and that would be only the beginning of our problems.
I am seeking help since I am having no quality of life whatsoever and can't enjoy my life or my hobbies at all whatsoever. I am in this hellish and miserable mental state 24/7 all because of this idea that I could forever remain dead when I die. The difference between me and people like you is that, for whatever reason, the idea of you forever no longer existing when you die isn't all that bad to you. You are fine with it. But since it is the most horrible thing to me, then this is the reason why I can't enjoy my life and why my life is completely miserable all the time. No matter how much I tell myself to "just accept it," "just deal with it and allow it, "it isn't all that bad," etc. none of these things work. For me to forever die and no longer live this precious life is the most horrible thing to me and even the advice of others who tell me that this life has more joy and meaning since it is the one and only life does not work for me either. Telling myself that doesn't work either and the idea of me forever dying still renders my life of no quality.Who says we are all fine with it? It's just a fact of life that we can't do anything about when the time comes for us to die. We just accept it and enjoy the life we do have. The earth is overpopulated with humans now. Just think what it would be like if we all lived forever and continued to procreated. Climate Change would have happen centuries ago, for starters and that would be only the beginning of our problems. What I should of instead said was that the idea of forever remaining dead does not completely devastate your life and render your life having no quality like me. You do not have this overwhelmingly powerful need to live forever in eternal bliss. A need that is so strong that it destroys your life since said need cannot be achieved. I have this need since, again, I never wish to forever remain dead and living life and enjoying it is something so precious to me that when the idea of me forever dying is introduced, my entire life becomes empty, hellish, and miserable.
What I should of instead said was that the idea of forever remaining dead does not completely devastate your life and render your life having no quality like me. You do not have this overwhelmingly powerful need to live forever in eternal bliss. A need that is so strong that it destroys your life since said need cannot be achieved. I have this need since, again, I never wish to forever remain dead and living life and enjoying it is something so precious to me that when the idea of me forever dying is introduced, my entire life becomes empty, hellish, and miserable.My guess is, and I'm not an expert, you don't have any special desire for life that is more powerful than everyone else's. Maybe you want to live more than most people, that doesn't make you all that different. What you have that makes you different is your obsession with this idea of eternal life. Having an obsession with something is EXACTLY the kind of thing professionals deal with. There are hundreds of people who would just love to talk to you about that. If you disagree with me, well okay, but then we are just like school children standing in a playground saying "yes I am", "no you're not", "yes I am", "no you're not". Which really doesn't have much value. Those professionals will know how to take this conversation beyond that. If I'm wrong, hey, you win, you still get to be just like you are now. You can come back here and tell me you told me so.
I think I can finally explain my situation. It is no different than being miserable on that roller coaster ride since you know it will end and it ending is the absolute worst thing to you. You have the overwhelming desire for it to last forever since it is something so precious to you. This desire prevents you from enjoying the roller coaster ride in the here and now and no matter what you tell yourself, nothing works and you still remain devastated and miserable.
I am fine with movies and roller coaster rides ending since they are not the most important things. However, me being alive and enjoying this life is the most important and precious thing to me and the idea that this will be forever gone one day when I die prevents me from enjoying this life I have and renders my life completely empty and miserable.
“Whatsoever therefore is consequent to a time of War, where every man is Enemy to every man; the same is consequent to the time, wherein men live without other security, than what their own strength, and their own invention shall furnish them withall. In such condition, there is no place for Industry; because the fruit thereof is uncertain; and consequently no Culture of the Earth; no Navigation, nor use of the commodities that may be imported by Sea; no commodious Building; no Instruments of moving, and removing such things as require much force; no Knowledge of the face of the Earth; no account of Time; no Arts; no Letters; no Society; and which is worst of all, continual fear, and danger of violent death; And the life of man, solitary, poor, nasty, brutish, and short.”
Thomas Hobbes, Leviathan
I always thought the word “short” in the quote was pure sarcasm.
I think I can finally explain my situation. It is no different than being miserable on that roller coaster ride since you know it will end and it ending is the absolute worst thing to you. You have the overwhelming desire for it to last forever since it is something so precious to you. This desire prevents you from enjoying the roller coaster ride in the here and now and no matter what you tell yourself, nothing works and you still remain devastated and miserable. I am fine with movies and roller coaster rides ending since they are not the most important things. However, me being alive and enjoying this life is the most important and precious thing to me and the idea that this will be forever gone one day when I die prevents me from enjoying this life I have and renders my life completely empty and miserable.What exactly is the issue with psychiatry? Is it the cost, because there are programs to help with that. Is it stigma? Doesn't seem like it. You got the diagnosis. Is it that you don't think it will work? You don't really have anything to lose.
I am going to take a guess and say that the reason why people are fine with forever dying is because living a full life is like eating food and getting full of it. {that would be completely missing my point} You have had enough and you want to die and are fine with dying. For you to live forever in eternal bliss is too much for you and would be horror for you. But see, I am not like that. If I were like that, then perhaps I would be fine with forever dying. I don't know on this one.Nah, in my personal creation myth, I can imagine the conception of a human as a trinity event, not just the egg and sperm, but also a spark of energy…, an echo from something that came before. When I die, I'll release that spark of energy, that echo of my life, perhaps somewhere a sliver of it may meet up with another egg and sperm about to do the deed. It's a fairytale for sure, nothing I'd care to defend, just my little teddy bear for a little comfort in the cold freezer of eternity. My life is an intimate union between what's going on inside my head and heart and body. I've been tremendously fortunate having a body that pretty much always done what I want it to and when I want to do it, one that goes about it's maintenance and housekeeping chores pretty much unseen, unobtrusive. If my body were different, my life experience would also be different, my Being's being would still be intimately tied to whatever body I had. We experience life through our bodies and we express our lives through out bodies. When we die, we leave our bodies - How can the person I am exist without my body? For me myself, that experiment sounds like a horror worse than solitary confinement or becoming paraplegic. How would you experience experience without your body? What about your family, or even your generation. I'm of the high school class of 1973. That means I have an experience awareness totally different from someone born in 1973, or god forbid in 2000 or later. I share a certain kinship with others of that generation, that does not, can not, exist with someone a decade or more removed. I call my mom, now 90 and she tells me how difficult it is getting through the holiday season. She's of the generation where they wrote letters to each other, if only around Christmas/New Year's and she says, now she looks through her address book for family and long time friends and they are all gone. Only half jokingly she's depressed that no one has made the effort to come down and pack her away already. My mom is agnostic but figures god must have a good heart - she's one of those who believe's, but who doesn't take their belief too seriously. What she does know is that she is tired, very tired, her once healthy body is gone, she had a good life, good memories and sad, she has the inner success of raising five kids who adore her and none of 'em caused her grief, in fact, we've all done her proud in our unique ways. But, she's had her ride, she's ready for the big sleep. Not sure if I got lost in too much rambling there, but my point is, it seems to me that life only makes sense within the context of the one fleeting moment you were given here on Earth.
This life isn’t meant to be cherished. It is meant to be destroyed. If anything or anyone messes with me and gives me problems, then they will be destroyed. Since this life has given me the greatest problem of all which is eternal death rather than what I absolutely need and solely value in life which is an eternal blissful life, then this life is more than worthy of being destroyed. Eternal death is the ultimate abomination and the ultimate sin against me. It is the ultimate insult, mockery, and demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being since it is no different than saying to me:
“Here, you have this beautiful life to live for a while. But too bad, it is only here for a short time and I am going to put you forever in the grave. You are nothing more than a biological organism that will live and just forever be waste and decayed in the end. You are not an immortal soul. You are just here to live and forever die. You are nothing more than a mere biological process of life. Sure, you can do good deeds in this life and other important things. But you are still nothing more than a mere biological process of life that will just live and forever die one day.”
Anything or anyone that demeans my personal value and worth like this needs to be destroyed. Therefore, this life was better off having been destroyed to begin with.
Mozart, you’re regressing. Get help.
Mozart, you're regressing. Get help.Yes, definitely going in the wrong direction, but I think that is the nature of mental illness. Mozart shows the ability to connect ideas logically and form a train of thought, but needs guidance when he goes off track. A person with MI does not follow any "normal" course of building on a series of ideas and moving toward a goal. They make several steps forward, only to fall many more behind. It's a different type of progress than most of us are accustomed to. He has never fully embraced the idea that someone can help him. This last statement is one of the strongest that he is not interested in anyone else's opinion. Too bad, since his opinion is, I'm a human, just like everyone else, but I have a special need, therefore I should be given what I need.
Mozart, you're regressing. Get help.Yes, definitely going in the wrong direction, but I think that is the nature of mental illness. Mozart shows the ability to connect ideas logically and form a train of thought, but needs guidance when he goes off track. A person with MI does not follow any "normal" course of building on a series of ideas and moving toward a goal. They make several steps forward, only to fall many more behind. It's a different type of progress than most of us are accustomed to. He has never fully embraced the idea that someone can help him. This last statement is one of the strongest that he is not interested in anyone else's opinion. Too bad, since his opinion is, I'm a human, just like everyone else, but I have a special need, therefore I should be given what I need. You call this greed (a special need). No, it is a completely different situation. This is not like a situation where I want some fancy car or mansion. This is me as a human being we're talking here. This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. So for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. For anyone to not be driven to a psychotic rage by this like I am just shows how idiotic you really are. You are like a stupid happy person just taking life easy and enjoying this life you have. To even ask any dumbfounded questions such as how is eternal death demeaning of my value and worth just shows how idiotic you really are. Finally, many people might say that I am doing nothing but complaining. I wouldn't be complaining if other things in my life brought me joy and meaning besides living forever in eternal bliss. But the fact of the matter is that they don't. It is only when I get to live forever in eternal bliss that I am happy, enjoying my life, and find meaning in this life. I will also tell you another reason why the idea of me no longer existing forever when I die is so bad to me. I am not the self-sacrificing type of person. I am the extreme opposite of self-sacrificing. I am extremely self-preserving. So the idea that I have to forever be sacrificed in the end when I die really gets to me, devastates my life, and renders my life hellish and miserable.
This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. So for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. For anyone to not be driven to a psychotic rage by this like I am just shows how idiotic you really are. You are like a stupid happy person just taking life easy and enjoying this life you have. To even ask any dumbfounded questions such as how is eternal death demeaning of my value and worth just shows how idiotic you really are.Get over yourself. The universe doesn't care about you. In fact, the universe is trying to kill you.
Finally, many people might say that I am doing nothing but complaining. I wouldn't be complaining if other things in my life brought me joy and meaning besides living forever in eternal bliss. But the fact of the matter is that they don't. It is only when I get to live forever in eternal bliss that I am happy, enjoying my life, and find meaning in this life. I will also tell you another reason why the idea of me no longer existing forever when I die is so bad to me. I am not the self-sacrificing type of person. I am the extreme opposite of self-sacrificing. I am extremely self-preserving. So the idea that I have to forever be sacrificed in the end when I die really gets to me, devastates my life, and renders my life hellish and miserable.You are extremely annoying. Life is tough and then you die. Deal with it.
This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. So for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. For anyone to not be driven to a psychotic rage by this like I am just shows how idiotic you really are. You are like a stupid happy person just taking life easy and enjoying this life you have. To even ask any dumbfounded questions such as how is eternal death demeaning of my value and worth just shows how idiotic you really are.Get over yourself. The universe doesn't care about you. In fact, the universe is trying to kill you.
Finally, many people might say that I am doing nothing but complaining. I wouldn't be complaining if other things in my life brought me joy and meaning besides living forever in eternal bliss. But the fact of the matter is that they don't. It is only when I get to live forever in eternal bliss that I am happy, enjoying my life, and find meaning in this life. I will also tell you another reason why the idea of me no longer existing forever when I die is so bad to me. I am not the self-sacrificing type of person. I am the extreme opposite of self-sacrificing. I am extremely self-preserving. So the idea that I have to forever be sacrificed in the end when I die really gets to me, devastates my life, and renders my life hellish and miserable.You are extremely annoying. Life is tough and then you die. Deal with it. You say just change my life and just deal with it. Like I said, no matter what I try and think, nothing changes. This is truly the only thing I have in life that brings my life meaning and I wouldn't be sitting here complaining if other things brought my life meaning and joy. If this were some fancy want such as a car or a mansion, then yes, I would agree that I would be like a child. But this is a completely different situation we are talking here. This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. Like I said, for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. So me complaining about it and being enraged about a situation like this is not childish. It is well justified and mature.
This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. So for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. For anyone to not be driven to a psychotic rage by this like I am just shows how idiotic you really are. You are like a stupid happy person just taking life easy and enjoying this life you have. To even ask any dumbfounded questions such as how is eternal death demeaning of my value and worth just shows how idiotic you really are.Get over yourself. The universe doesn't care about you. In fact, the universe is trying to kill you.
Finally, many people might say that I am doing nothing but complaining. I wouldn't be complaining if other things in my life brought me joy and meaning besides living forever in eternal bliss. But the fact of the matter is that they don't. It is only when I get to live forever in eternal bliss that I am happy, enjoying my life, and find meaning in this life. I will also tell you another reason why the idea of me no longer existing forever when I die is so bad to me. I am not the self-sacrificing type of person. I am the extreme opposite of self-sacrificing. I am extremely self-preserving. So the idea that I have to forever be sacrificed in the end when I die really gets to me, devastates my life, and renders my life hellish and miserable.You are extremely annoying. Life is tough and then you die. Deal with it. You say just change my life and just deal with it. Like I said, no matter what I try and think, nothing changes. This is truly the only thing I have in life that brings my life meaning and I wouldn't be sitting here complaining if other things brought my life meaning and joy. If this were some fancy want such as a car or a mansion, then yes, I would agree that I would be like a child. But this is a completely different situation we are talking here. This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. Like I said, for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. So me complaining about it and being enraged about a situation like this is not childish. It is well justified and mature. It's just the way of things. When a fungus dies, it doesn't go to heaven. It simply ceases to be. When an ant dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a tree dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a chicken dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a dog dies, it doesn't go to heaven. Analogously, when a human dies, there is no reason to think he or she goes to heaven. But that doesn't necessarily mean everything is just terrible and meaningless. I would recommend watching Woody Allen's famous movie "Hannah And Her Sisters," which deals with exactly the problems you are having and offers a positive way to look at things.
This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. So for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. For anyone to not be driven to a psychotic rage by this like I am just shows how idiotic you really are. You are like a stupid happy person just taking life easy and enjoying this life you have. To even ask any dumbfounded questions such as how is eternal death demeaning of my value and worth just shows how idiotic you really are.Get over yourself. The universe doesn't care about you. In fact, the universe is trying to kill you.
Finally, many people might say that I am doing nothing but complaining. I wouldn't be complaining if other things in my life brought me joy and meaning besides living forever in eternal bliss. But the fact of the matter is that they don't. It is only when I get to live forever in eternal bliss that I am happy, enjoying my life, and find meaning in this life. I will also tell you another reason why the idea of me no longer existing forever when I die is so bad to me. I am not the self-sacrificing type of person. I am the extreme opposite of self-sacrificing. I am extremely self-preserving. So the idea that I have to forever be sacrificed in the end when I die really gets to me, devastates my life, and renders my life hellish and miserable.You are extremely annoying. Life is tough and then you die. Deal with it. You say just change my life and just deal with it. Like I said, no matter what I try and think, nothing changes. This is truly the only thing I have in life that brings my life meaning and I wouldn't be sitting here complaining if other things brought my life meaning and joy. If this were some fancy want such as a car or a mansion, then yes, I would agree that I would be like a child. But this is a completely different situation we are talking here. This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. Like I said, for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. So me complaining about it and being enraged about a situation like this is not childish. It is well justified and mature. It's just the way of things. When a fungus dies, it doesn't go to heaven. It simply ceases to be. When an ant dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a tree dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a chicken dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a dog dies, it doesn't go to heaven. Analogously, when a human dies, there is no reason to think he or she goes to heaven. But that doesn't necessarily mean everything is just terrible and meaningless. I would recommend watching Woody Allen's famous movie "Hannah And Her Sisters," which deals with exactly the problems you are having and offers a positive way to look at things. Living forever in eternal bliss is truly the only thing that matters to me in life and nothing else. All things in life independent of that do not matter to me and bring my life no joy or meaning at all. It is only through me living forever in eternal bliss that brings all those things joy and meaning to me. So the very one and only source of all joy and meaning in my life is living forever in eternal bliss. Without this source, then all joy and meaning in my life is lost. It is my feelings of bliss and living forever that brings joy and meaning to all things in my life including the relationship I have with my own family. So without this, my family no longer matters to me anymore, I would give up on them, and end my life since I have nothing else in my life to bring me joy and meaning.
This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. So for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. For anyone to not be driven to a psychotic rage by this like I am just shows how idiotic you really are. You are like a stupid happy person just taking life easy and enjoying this life you have. To even ask any dumbfounded questions such as how is eternal death demeaning of my value and worth just shows how idiotic you really are.Get over yourself. The universe doesn't care about you. In fact, the universe is trying to kill you.
Finally, many people might say that I am doing nothing but complaining. I wouldn't be complaining if other things in my life brought me joy and meaning besides living forever in eternal bliss. But the fact of the matter is that they don't. It is only when I get to live forever in eternal bliss that I am happy, enjoying my life, and find meaning in this life. I will also tell you another reason why the idea of me no longer existing forever when I die is so bad to me. I am not the self-sacrificing type of person. I am the extreme opposite of self-sacrificing. I am extremely self-preserving. So the idea that I have to forever be sacrificed in the end when I die really gets to me, devastates my life, and renders my life hellish and miserable.You are extremely annoying. Life is tough and then you die. Deal with it. You say just change my life and just deal with it. Like I said, no matter what I try and think, nothing changes. This is truly the only thing I have in life that brings my life meaning and I wouldn't be sitting here complaining if other things brought my life meaning and joy. If this were some fancy want such as a car or a mansion, then yes, I would agree that I would be like a child. But this is a completely different situation we are talking here. This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. Like I said, for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. So me complaining about it and being enraged about a situation like this is not childish. It is well justified and mature. It's just the way of things. When a fungus dies, it doesn't go to heaven. It simply ceases to be. When an ant dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a tree dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a chicken dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a dog dies, it doesn't go to heaven. Analogously, when a human dies, there is no reason to think he or she goes to heaven. But that doesn't necessarily mean everything is just terrible and meaningless. I would recommend watching Woody Allen's famous movie "Hannah And Her Sisters," which deals with exactly the problems you are having and offers a positive way to look at things. Living forever in eternal bliss is truly the only thing that matters to me in life and nothing else. All things in life independent of that do not matter to me and bring my life no joy or meaning at all. It is only through me living forever in eternal bliss that brings all those things joy and meaning to me. So the very one and only source of all joy and meaning in my life is living forever in eternal bliss. Without this source, then all joy and meaning in my life is lost. It is my feelings of bliss and living forever that brings joy and meaning to all things in my life including the relationship I have with my own family. So without this, my family no longer matters to me anymore, I would give up on them, and end my life since I have nothing else in my life to bring me joy and meaning. You should really be telling this to a psychologist. There are definitely ways to help you (medication, cognitive behavioral therapy, etc.). But don't think you are the only one to have ever gone through this. Here's a clip from the movie I mentioned. Check it out: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftiIPJky_Vs
This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. So for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. For anyone to not be driven to a psychotic rage by this like I am just shows how idiotic you really are. You are like a stupid happy person just taking life easy and enjoying this life you have. To even ask any dumbfounded questions such as how is eternal death demeaning of my value and worth just shows how idiotic you really are.Get over yourself. The universe doesn't care about you. In fact, the universe is trying to kill you.
Finally, many people might say that I am doing nothing but complaining. I wouldn't be complaining if other things in my life brought me joy and meaning besides living forever in eternal bliss. But the fact of the matter is that they don't. It is only when I get to live forever in eternal bliss that I am happy, enjoying my life, and find meaning in this life. I will also tell you another reason why the idea of me no longer existing forever when I die is so bad to me. I am not the self-sacrificing type of person. I am the extreme opposite of self-sacrificing. I am extremely self-preserving. So the idea that I have to forever be sacrificed in the end when I die really gets to me, devastates my life, and renders my life hellish and miserable.You are extremely annoying. Life is tough and then you die. Deal with it. You say just change my life and just deal with it. Like I said, no matter what I try and think, nothing changes. This is truly the only thing I have in life that brings my life meaning and I wouldn't be sitting here complaining if other things brought my life meaning and joy. If this were some fancy want such as a car or a mansion, then yes, I would agree that I would be like a child. But this is a completely different situation we are talking here. This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. Like I said, for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. So me complaining about it and being enraged about a situation like this is not childish. It is well justified and mature. It's just the way of things. When a fungus dies, it doesn't go to heaven. It simply ceases to be. When an ant dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a tree dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a chicken dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a dog dies, it doesn't go to heaven. Analogously, when a human dies, there is no reason to think he or she goes to heaven. But that doesn't necessarily mean everything is just terrible and meaningless. I would recommend watching Woody Allen's famous movie "Hannah And Her Sisters," which deals with exactly the problems you are having and offers a positive way to look at things. Living forever in eternal bliss is truly the only thing that matters to me in life and nothing else. All things in life independent of that do not matter to me and bring my life no joy or meaning at all. It is only through me living forever in eternal bliss that brings all those things joy and meaning to me. So the very one and only source of all joy and meaning in my life is living forever in eternal bliss. Without this source, then all joy and meaning in my life is lost. It is my feelings of bliss and living forever that brings joy and meaning to all things in my life including the relationship I have with my own family. So without this, my family no longer matters to me anymore, I would give up on them, and end my life since I have nothing else in my life to bring me joy and meaning. You should really be telling this to a psychologist. There are definitely ways to help you (medication, cognitive behavioral therapy, etc.). But don't think you are the only one to have ever gone through this. Here's a clip from the movie I mentioned. Check it out: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftiIPJky_Vs No. I refuse to live such an abomination of a life that not only renders me unhappy in this life, but also offers me no eternal blissful afterlife. I will put an end to such an abomination right now. So I am giving up on life right now since me living in eternal bliss is all that matters to me in life. This is all I came here to live for and nothing else. So goodbye. I think I am at the end of my rope here and am considering ending my life. The fact is, if other things in my life brought me joy and meaning, then you wouldn't see me giving up. But since this is not the case, then this is why I am immediately giving up on life right now.
This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. So for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. For anyone to not be driven to a psychotic rage by this like I am just shows how idiotic you really are. You are like a stupid happy person just taking life easy and enjoying this life you have. To even ask any dumbfounded questions such as how is eternal death demeaning of my value and worth just shows how idiotic you really are.Get over yourself. The universe doesn't care about you. In fact, the universe is trying to kill you.
Finally, many people might say that I am doing nothing but complaining. I wouldn't be complaining if other things in my life brought me joy and meaning besides living forever in eternal bliss. But the fact of the matter is that they don't. It is only when I get to live forever in eternal bliss that I am happy, enjoying my life, and find meaning in this life. I will also tell you another reason why the idea of me no longer existing forever when I die is so bad to me. I am not the self-sacrificing type of person. I am the extreme opposite of self-sacrificing. I am extremely self-preserving. So the idea that I have to forever be sacrificed in the end when I die really gets to me, devastates my life, and renders my life hellish and miserable.You are extremely annoying. Life is tough and then you die. Deal with it. You say just change my life and just deal with it. Like I said, no matter what I try and think, nothing changes. This is truly the only thing I have in life that brings my life meaning and I wouldn't be sitting here complaining if other things brought my life meaning and joy. If this were some fancy want such as a car or a mansion, then yes, I would agree that I would be like a child. But this is a completely different situation we are talking here. This is my own existence as a human being we are talking here. Like I said, for that to be tossed and forever thrown away as though I am just some biological process here to live and just remain dead in the end is the most demeaning thing. It is utterly demeaning of my personal value and worth as a human being. So me complaining about it and being enraged about a situation like this is not childish. It is well justified and mature. It's just the way of things. When a fungus dies, it doesn't go to heaven. It simply ceases to be. When an ant dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a tree dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a chicken dies, it doesn't go to heaven. When a dog dies, it doesn't go to heaven. Analogously, when a human dies, there is no reason to think he or she goes to heaven. But that doesn't necessarily mean everything is just terrible and meaningless. I would recommend watching Woody Allen's famous movie "Hannah And Her Sisters," which deals with exactly the problems you are having and offers a positive way to look at things. Living forever in eternal bliss is truly the only thing that matters to me in life and nothing else. All things in life independent of that do not matter to me and bring my life no joy or meaning at all. It is only through me living forever in eternal bliss that brings all those things joy and meaning to me. So the very one and only source of all joy and meaning in my life is living forever in eternal bliss. Without this source, then all joy and meaning in my life is lost. It is my feelings of bliss and living forever that brings joy and meaning to all things in my life including the relationship I have with my own family. So without this, my family no longer matters to me anymore, I would give up on them, and end my life since I have nothing else in my life to bring me joy and meaning. You should really be telling this to a psychologist. There are definitely ways to help you (medication, cognitive behavioral therapy, etc.). But don't think you are the only one to have ever gone through this. Here's a clip from the movie I mentioned. Check it out: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftiIPJky_Vs No. I refuse to live such an abomination of a life that not only renders me unhappy in this life, but also offers me no eternal blissful afterlife. I will put an end to such an abomination right now. So I am giving up on life right now since me living in eternal bliss is all that matters to me in life. This is all I came here to live for and nothing else. So goodbye. I think I am at the end of my rope here and am considering ending my life. The fact is, if other things in my life brought me joy and meaning, then you wouldn't see me giving up. But since this is not the case, then this is why I am immediately giving up on life right now. All these problems are easily treatable through psychotherapy and/or medication. Just as drugs can make you "high," meds can also fix chemical imbalances in the brain and make you interested and satisfied in life again.
All these problems are easily treatable through psychotherapy and/or medication. Just as drugs can make you "high," meds can also fix chemical imbalances in the brain and make you interested and satisfied in life again.We've been telling him that since he signed up and started telling us how unhappy he is because his fantasy of living in eternal bliss won't come true. He has ignored us. The ironic part is that living forever probably would get boring after a few thousand years or so, then he'd be whining about not having any new experiences.
All these problems are easily treatable through psychotherapy and/or medication. Just as drugs can make you "high," meds can also fix chemical imbalances in the brain and make you interested and satisfied in life again.We've been telling him that since he signed up and started telling us how unhappy he is because his fantasy of living in eternal bliss won't come true. He has ignored us. The ironic part is that living forever probably would get boring after a few thousand years or so, then he'd be whining about not having any new experiences. That is plain false. You would never hear me complaining in an eternal blissful life since it is the only thing that matters to me. Furthermore, I have been taking medication and getting advice. None of it is working.