I created An account just to respond to you. I’m having a similar issue but with numbers. It all started with the number 69, that now fills me with anxiety…
I have a number of strange experiences that began at a young age, and I too was also Christian at one point and I no longer am.
I’ll share with you some odd coincidences. First let’s start with the number 69.
At my first caregiver Job, I was seeing the number 69 too often for it to be a coincidence but at the time want into researching synchronisticities. So I was just curious as of to why I kept seeing it. Long story short, I got this overwhelming feeling that I should quit the job, but stayed. Long story short, was getting ready to report a coworker for abuse of a patient that I collected evidence about. She found out I was reporting her and decided to counter report with false accusations while manipulating a patient with autism who was severely delusional to lie on me by successfully gaslighting him. I had a dream the day before I went into the office that she came to me and told me that she was going to get rid of me “In the name of Jesus” and I told her in the dream “You’re God has no power over me”. She was a wicked woman, as I find most Christians to be, ironically. After that dream, I went into the office the next day to make my report and saw that she too was at the office. After writing my report, I was slapped with a suspension saying that I too had bee. Reported, and I knew it was her…
I am not an Athiest, as a matter of fact I’m a practicing demonolotrist, and it’s relevant to my story. I was suspended and eventually fired due to her lie. Some buddies and I with “Friends on the other side” did some “work” to get rid of her, as in make her lose her Job and she definitely did. For context with are all demonolotrists.
Now, that was at my first caregiver job. I later became a nursing assistant. At my first nursing assistant job, everything was going smoothly again and suddenly towards the end of it all I began to see the number 69 she getting a strong feeling that I should quit. I lost my job again after missing a day of work from being burned out and misreading the schedule.
Long story short, I would see this number, get an intense feeling that I’m on the wrong path and should change paths of my own accord, and everytime I ignored the number and tried to stay on that path, I was uprooted from the path in a devastating manner and put on a new one. However, the new path I was put on was much better for me.
So… Without making this too long, I began to see the number 69 again and was immediately filled with anxiety. This time the coincidences were too powerful to be ignored.
It usually shows up as a warning. I went on a date with this Russian gut and kept seeing the number 69. He fave me his credit card to go buy a beach towel and his pin number was 0069… I shit you not. Thar same Russian guy tried to abduct me. He attempted to lure me to a hotel with several excuses and when that didn’t work, tried to get me to agree to go home with him. There were a lot of red flags with this guy. I told him to drop me off at my car and that I wasn’t going home with him because his behavior was off the entire date, he was overly jealous, and verbally abusive. This guy literally would not stop the car and I had to jump out to get away from him.
So you get the idea, 69=bad
Recently I’m engaged, and only after a month of dating. I started seeing the number 69 a lot at my fiance house. On the thermostat almost every time Iook it, in my phone, randomly on social media. A paper came in the mail and 69 was written in big bold letters, and I told him about my paranoia in regards to this number. He told me it was his grandfather birthday and not to freak out but he was turning 69…
Anyways, because I’m happy in my relationship I didn’t like seeing that number all over the place. So I decided to ignore it. When I tried to ignore it, it only got more intense and now I’m seeing it multiple times a day. Too often to be a coincidence. A car infront of me had 69 on the License plate, and when I tried to ignore it, ANOTHER car pulled up right next to that one that also had the number 69 and they were both driving next to each other infront of me. So I tried to brush it off again. On the way home, I had 3.0 miles left before I got to my fiance house, according the GPS, and then I look up at a build board and I shit you not, it was an advertisement amd said “69 3.0 miles away” That whatever was on the Billboard was being advertised for $69, and that it was 3.0 miles away. My fiance house was 3.0 miles away.
So… With this number, whenever I start seeing it a lot like this, it typically means that I am on the wrong path. If I do not change path of my own accord, I will be uprooted from that path in the manner that I do not control. Naturally this fills me the anxiety, because I feel like I finally met an amazing man and I don’t want to lose him. Lately my anxiety has been spiraling out of control coma and so has my temper. So we have gotten into 4 fights, and fights were a result of my temper. My temperament is usually very mellow, but lately I have been easily irritated. I worried that he would get sick of my irritability, and throw in the towel, because I have flew off the handle more than once, which is out of character.
A few times I have thought to myself that some unknown force was actively sabotaging me. I really hate to think that way, but these coincidents are nothing new for me, Especially not with that number.
I looked on YouTube what the angel number 69 means, because that’s what they call them. They call them angel numbers. The meaning of it was generally very positive, so I try to reframe my mind to think of the number positively. However, my personal experience seeing the number all over the place, has been very negative.
That is just with this number, but I have some other unexplained coincidences that are very scary…
I will tell you that every man I have ever dated, and if I had a dream that he was cheating, he definitely was cheating. I remember meeting up with a man from tender, and having sex with him. I went to sleep in his arms and had a dream that he told me he was married. When I woke up, I felt so relieved, Cause I really liked this guy, and thank God it was just a dream. However, I told him about the dream, he confirmed that he was indeed married.
I was engaged as a teenager, and had a dream that my fiance kissed my friend Anna. I got very angry at the dream, but told myself it was ridiculous to be angry because it was just a dream. Then a mutual friend of ours came to me and told me that my fiancee kissed Anna, and I was furious. I confronted him about it, and initially he lied, but then he eventually admitted to it.
Another weird coincidence is that after I went back to him like a dumb-ass for 100th time, I had a dream that he was friends with this girl, but he was flirting hard with her, and that they were childhood friends. I woke up for the dream relieved that it was just a dream. However, all of a sudden he brings this childhood friend into the picture, That he tried to make me be friends with, which turns out that they were flirting with each other and even went on a date behind my back.
Another incident was with this Peruvian guy I was talking to, I went to sleep and had a dream that I got angry at him because I found out That an ex girlfriend of his was spending days at his house. This is really freaky, because I remember casually bringing up that if he ever had something to tell me, that involved another woman, that I wouldn’t get angry so long as he was honest with me about it first. I did not tell him about the dream. However, once again the dream was correct. He told me that an ex girlfriend of his contact at him, and wanted to have closure. That this was a promise that he made to her before he met me, and that she was going to be spending a week at his house. I was LIVID.
Anyways, you get the idea. I have these strange coincidences where I would dream of a man cheating and then it turns out that the details of the dream when scarily accurate. If it wasn’t something he already did with another woman, like the Peruvian gut, it was something he was PLANNING to do that I got conformation of after dreaming about it…
This shit gets weirder, trust me, but I would be writing an entire book. I tried to find an explanation for the coincidences to put my anxiety about them at ease to no avail.
So, now with my fiance, not only am I seeing the number 69 repeatedly, but I’m having dreams of him cheating. I also had a dream that we had a horrible fight that resulted in break up, right before we had a devastating fight.
So I try to shrug it off as paranoia, but the coincidences are too uncanny. It’s causing debilitating anxiety in my relationship.
I have more stories buy will leave it at this for now.
No, one more dream… I was in middle school I think, and had a bizarre dream. In the dream, I was standing in the middle of a desert and saw two tall white identical cylinder towers. The sky was red and the clouds moved rapidly through the cloud like a time lapse, or someone press forward on a video tape.
One tower collapsed, then shortly after the other fell as well.
As a child, my vocabulary wasn’t the best, so when I woke up from the dream I described it to my mother as seeing “twin towers falling down”
At the time, I had no idea what the twin towers were and this was before 9/11.
Another very bizarre ass coincidence.
So my dreams are typically spot on and the number 69 is a bad omen for me, despite the videos on YouTube saying it’s a positive number.
So imagine my anxiety having dreams of my partner cheating, though he says he would never, and seeking the number 69 so frequently lately after being recently engaged.
Especially since I really want this relationship to work out, and now I’m having anxiety.
I have a lot of other bizarre stories, but I’ll leave it at that.
I Googled “anxiety around synchronisticities” and found this thread.