Good on you. If it ain’t hurting you ain’t learning. Accepting tough love, that goes far, you’re gonna have fun here yet.
If you want to learn a bunch about the idea of evolution and how the idea(s) evolved you might consider Daniel Dennett’s “Darwin’s Dangerous Idea”. {I do contend that he misses an important ingredient in his first chapter}, but the rest of it is a great telling, along with a bibliographical treasure trove to other solid, substantial information about developing evolutionary understanding.
If you aren’t familiar with the literature, this is a great introduction, with plenty of pointers.
Beyond that, given that I have a very different background, one of no religious indoctrination, simply a gentle introduction to Christianity, then being trusted to figure it out for ourselves (siblings), we have different assessments and conclusions.
Here’s a collection of idea I put together today, I’d be curious of your assessment.