Jesus suffered and died on the cross for me. We all know it. But what, exactly, does that mean? Why did he need to die? What did that do for me?
The answers to that are convoluted and confusing, but I think I can simplify it. God cannot abide sin. To be forgiven for sin requires two things of us. There must be atonement (the price to be paid) and repentance (asking for forgiveness). Repentance is easy, but atonement is a little more difficult. A price must be paid to atone for the sin. And that price is blood. Specifically, the blood of the innocent; those without sin.
In the early days, before Jesus the Christ (it always annoys me when people use “Christ” like a last name. It was a title, not a name), that price was paid by the blood of animals, who were innocent because they were incapable of sin. This creates several obvious issues.
First, Americans today have it far better than most people throughout all of history. On average they are housed and clothed and fed pretty well. But even today, how many Americans do you think could actually afford to do regular animal sacrifices? How many sheep could you afford to buy a year, every year, to atone for your sins? Take that number, reduce it to zero and then halve it to get the number the average person back then could afford. So this atonement was likely to be made by entire communities rather than individuals, but still those with money have always bitched that they had to pay when those without did not, so even as a community effort it would have been problematic.
More importantly, though, bloody animal sacrifice is a primitive practice, frowned upon by civilized people. As the culture advanced religions requiring blood sacrifice began to die out and those who still practiced it must have been shunned by those around them, even persecuted. To imagine what people must have thought of those still practicing blood sacrifice we have only to look back to the 1980’s and remember the disgust Christians had when discussing the imagined Satanists of the Satanic Panic performing those very same rituals (irony is usually lost on these people).
So why did Jesus need to die for my sins? He didn’t. He needed to die for the religion. In order to survive the religion needed to transition away from blood sacrifice. Fortunately there were prophecies of a savior who would come. This savior, being without sin AND human, would be a final blood sacrifice, paying the debt once and for all and allowing the church to modernize by disposing of the unsavory and primitive practices of the past. And it didn’t even require an actual sacrifice, just the idea of one. The story was enough. And, given that nobody remembered the sacrifice until decades later, it almost certainly was just a story, created by the founders of the Catholic church as a means of transitioning the religion into a new era; a way to modernize the religion without technically “changing” any of the beliefs.
But lets assume that the sacrifice was real, made to a real God. What would that mean for us? God sacrificed himself, to himself, to save us from himself so that he could become capable of forgiving us. So, God did it, to God, for God, to save us from God because that’s how God decided it should be. How is any of that for me? The sacrifice was to pay the price God demanded so that God would be able to forgive us for doing the things God does not want us to do. But it’s more than that. It’s much, much worse than that.
Ask any Christian if it is possible for anyone other than Jesus to live a life completely free of sin. I have never, ever heard one say, “Why yes, that’s completely possible. I, myself, have never thought about boobies or spanked it or anything!” They will tell you that it is impossible to live a life without sin; that only Jesus was able to do it because he was perfect (which is a whole other contradiction. Sin is imperfection. If Jesus was perfect then it would have been impossible for him to sin, so he was never truly “tempted” and living without sin was a foregone conclusion, not some miraculous feat). So if it’s impossible to never, ever sin, then that means that God sacrificed God to God to pay the price God demanded so that God could forgive us for not doing…that which is impossible for us to do. Essentially the Jesus’ sacrifice saved from the sin of existing.