Thanks for the comments I’ll chew on them, but don’t have anything to add there. …. but looks like I had plenty to ramble on about.
Well I finished one project, then on the way to another (to me) important writing project I been needing to finish,
I found myself listening to another guy’s take on determinism / free will
Determinism and Free Will Part (1/3)
tumbleweedjoe - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e13avJ0djgc
Looks like the cosmos
forced me back to these considerations, or as Flip would put it https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5kaiLcwHXB4
But seriously, it struck me that my issue might have more to do with my "frame of reference" than anything else.
I'm getting the feeling that perhaps what's irritating me when I heard terms like "forced" - is that it's such a totally ego-centric perspective,
still trying to explain or justify "my" place in this universe. When I got past that in my twenties.
Being quiet, introspective I was always sort of a freakster, on the outsider looking in - but more than that, the world I was looking in on seemed
off to me,
not quite right in the head so to speak.
It had priorities that made no sense to me, as I grew I watched it repeat mistakes,
and whereas mechanical disasters are examined and learned from
our religious and political and ecological mistakes have been repeating themselves generation after generation without any disasters
being examined and learned from.
Back to the early years when I was developing into a man, while the world around me sort of repulsed me, I also had to navigate it just like everyone else, and being fully on my own financially with zero bank roll, it was work and succeed or be a bum and die …
...while striving to stay true to myself
{way later J. Campbell's "follow your bliss" with bliss equaling perfecting your particular being -
rang like bell when I heard it}. Here it got interesting for me, being blessed with fitness and presentability and my need to work and earn money I wound up in positions and situations that aren't usually open to most of my introspective disposition/nature, or my cash bracket.
To keep a long story short, I became familiar with the deterministic nature of life and events because I dwelt on it and observing myself (behavior, emotions, good and bad), others and life's situations as they flowed on by. One early helpful insight was that the notion that we should date around a lot because "anyone could be that 'right girl" - was wrong. I recognized that only a certain small spectrum of gals would truly mesh with me. I really do love women, always have, and that realization helped free me and allow me to early on develop and enjoy friendships with woman on all sorts of levels - because from the onset I recognized the difference between a friend, a sister, or a partner and tried not to kid myself.
By recognizing and working with those determining factors I was able to experience a richer all around fulfilling constellation of personal experiences - way more than I could have focusing on my shyness and frustrations in frantic efforts to overcome it. Somehow I knew it would work itself out and it certainly did. In later decades I came to realize I been doing a thing I call "strategic shyness."
Another way of forcing my free will onto a forced deterministic world, thus bending it towards my desires. ;-) Finding freedom within your shackles.
Now with 60 knocking on my door I can't look out from myself as though I were a point in space with the world around me.
I'm on a continuum that goes way beyond my person, and when I hear stuff like "forced" and "if everything were exactly the same you would do the same thing" it feels like contrived kids talk, and when I stop to take all this really seriously, the various arguments still rings flat. Like why are we still struggling with this?
But then most the world's population believes in Mr. Big Eyes looking down on them and that this planet's not worth any sacrifices, so who am I kidding.