It’s all desire man. Everyone has it but for different things. I have met several who feel the way that I do and focus on living the life and looking the part, no mater how long it takes. I was, personally bitter about my situation. Mine was made more complex by the fact that my dad was a red neck and my mom was and still is a Jehovah’s Witness. You can imagine how pleased they were when they caught me in a one piece bathing suit with toilet paper breasts.
I’m lucky they didn’t burn me at the stake.