I read your OP just before you deleted. No need to apologize for doing that. I’ve written a few things I wish I could erase. I hear a lot of self awareness in your words. Robert Bly uses the symbols King/Queen, Warrior, Lover and Wizard that all of us have in us to some degree. He says if you have enough of the wizard, you can rebuild the others. It’s not magic, it’s more about the intellect, the alchemy of changing your self.
Telling someone to “be careful” always seemed silly to me, as if you hadn’t considered being careful and my telling you would suddenly make you start doing that. But I guess I just said it, so, there you have it.