I really wish I could help or offer some decent advise, Michelle, but that is far outside my ballpark. I'm just the opposite; I've sometimes wondered what it is that people feel when they talk about this powerful emotion, love. I really like people, my daughter being a number of rungs above anyone else, however, it's all intellectual, not emotional. I enjoy being around people, but as soon as someone demonstrates craziness, I quickly walk away. It's not attractive to me, and I'm not a therapist so I can't help. My only suggestion, and it fits my personality, not others', is to learn to recognize these problems in people and split as fast as you can. Avoid even slightly connecting with them.
And drink only soft drinks and don't smoke when you are with other people. When I was younger I found that smoking and drinking went together. If I was at a party and did either, the other was sure to follow. A glass or two of wine alone before bed is fine, but not with other people.
Occam
Hey Occam,
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You're right, stay away from this shit, and I'm working hard... (Deleted Text.)
You've mentioned your two glasses of wine before. I love it! That discipline and appreciation of the good things in life. - I need to learn from that, as right now I'm a fuck.
I'm good, doing good, but some change is needed. I like to drink and have no problem with it being so, actually annoyed at the "recovery" thing, because it subdues all free thought to submit to a philosophy I utterly despise for "help". - But I do agree, remaining sober-minded would avoid a lot of this shit. All my own fault. I pretty much ask to be raped and beaten. Not really the best way to go about things. Still, it's almost an addiction. You hate it, and yet you lay your own trap. It's sick.
I'm fine for tonight, enjoying it, we'll see what tomorrow brings...
Thanks for your thoughts.
Peace.